As you know Old Auntie was in the car wreck. Today I heard that my old reliable will probably be totaled (nothing official yet).
It got me thinking about how many things have changed in my life just in the last two years and how fate seems to be taking me even further into the unknown.
All my life has been spent caring for other people. My sister, mother, grandmother, Aunts, Uncles, cousins, children I helped raise.
But three years ago fate set a wheel in motion changing most of my known reality.
Now when it seems that the end of caring for other members of my family is near I gain a caring man in my life, lose my car, am thinking of moving out of the only home I've ever known and finding a better house to finish the rest of my life.
The feelings this brings are mixed. I gave up so many years on others never even daring to dream of what my future would involve. I'm sad that so many familiar things are leaving-- either in lingering deaths or painful crashes. I'm glad at the thought of a future that, hopefully, does not include the pain I have endured so many years.
The agony is losing the good as well as the bad.
Even my dear young Fairweather who has seen me through these times ultimately doesn't understand. I only hope fate protects her from ever going through these "trying times". (Yes a misquote of Dickens-The best of times/the worst of times speach and "these are the times that try mens souls").
You can be proud of Old Auntie though. I took down some things from the wall and put them in boxes so that when I do get another house they will be ready to move. A small thing but a start. As Kris Kringle says to the Winter Warlock it's "One foot in front of the Other".

Keep me in you thoughts my friends. This is perhaps the hardest thing of many that I've ever had to do.

Fairweather thinks I'm condescending on this one. I'm not really. In all my years of life I have been through things even she knows nothing about. I've seen her life go through very hard times as well. Yet there are things that I hope never happen in her life. Sorry if I offended Fairweather.